i hope you know you aren’t alone

I was reminded by my friend Jordan on October 15th that it was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness day/month.  So even though I’ve shared here before about miscarrying our first baby, I thought I could tell it again.  Along with links that I hope can help someone in the thick of it all not feel so isolated.

I will never forget the way I sobbed when I found out I had a miscarriage in early 2012.  The doctor telling me what I had already suspected but it felt like daggers hearing it.  My uncontrollable tears.  The grief was overwhelming for me.  I had only known I was pregnant for a week!  But it had been the happiest week.  I was so excited to become a mother.  Seeing just how elated JB was had meant more than I could have imagined.  I realize it was only a week; so I pray for and truly can’t begin to fathom those that carry longer, feel kicks, hiccups… My heart is with them.  I still think of our baby.  It can be heart wrenching.  I want to know them, and I do take comfort in knowing I’ll meet them one day.

I remember feeling SO alone then.  I didn’t tell many people at first.  But as soon as I did –  many told me they had one too, their mother did, their friend, or to read this post …  and it helped.  As much as I hate that anyone has to go through this at all, I was grateful for their support.  How I wish every woman longing for a baby, resulted in a healthy baby!   Though I guess I’d have dozens by now … (:   Others brave stories gave me courage to share my own.  To hopefully, help someone else along the way.

I wanted to also share a few friends stories that have meant so much to many, including me …

Jessica, Jordan, Ali, Victoria, and Grace

21 celebrities who opened up about their miscarriages.

Pregnancy Loss Empathy cards

Praying for all of you experiencing loss and/or longing <3  Especially during this month of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness.

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