Tuesday, January 29, 2013

a few thoughts on motherhood, three weeks into the field.

{booties and hat handmade by shannon reeve's momma!}


Motherhood.  He's ours.  This perfect tiny gift from above.  I'm taken aback by that fact all of the time now.  I check to make sure he is breathing.  far too much.  I try to replace worry with my prayers for him.  I have so many prayers and the list gets longer daily ... it is a tall order.   His scent makes my heart do things it hasn't ever experienced.  He is the best thing I've ever smelled.  Better than magnolias or confederate jasmine... Or even salt air.   His little noises.  They sound like a baby lambs.  I know I would do anything for him.  Will do anything. Crazy things I am sure.  This is the most exciting, exhilarating, exhausting journey I've been on.  Frustrating too.  I'd do anything to soothe him when he cries.  Nursing.  oh, that's so not as easy as I thought it would be.  But it gets better every day ... dare I say I'm starting to enjoy it.  If I could I'd spend my days staring at him.  He has my big eyes.  I had the same wide eyed expressions as a newborn too.  Seeing his daddies nose, cheeks, ears on him makes me warm and fuzzy inside when I look at him.  We made this.  This perfect little creature.  I'm so glad we did.  Dare I also say, parenthood has enriched our marriage in unexpected ways.  I am so thankful I get to do this with him.  My best friend makes one heck of a dad.  

thanks for listening to this new mommy ramble.  

51 comments:

  1. Oh Sarah, your words are so inspiring to me since I don't have babes yet. I am so proud of you and for you...he is so perfect and the cutest thing ever....I'm not just saying that either! He's precious I can't wait to see him grow! Thanks for sharing this journey with the world.

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  2. he is beautiful sarah!! ahhh! isn't it insane how much your insides change the second you see them?! and i PROMISE nursing goes from being super hard to super easy! just takes a little bit. i have never been so thankful for boobs :)

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  4. That is a very sweet post! He's adorable!

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  5. So happy for you. You know, I could relate so much to the *doing crazy stuff for him part*. It is funny, as our journey trying-to-have-a-baby-and -having-trouble-with-it continues, I already feel that love you are talking about... we are going through the craziness that treatment is precisely because of it.
    It must be nothing compared to actually having your little miracle in your arms.
    Hugs to you three.

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  6. This is so sweet. He's absolutely precious!

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  7. What a wonderful post. You are a beautiful writer and (now ) mom! Congrats!

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  8. I'm so happy for you and your husband! Little Tuck seems like all kinds of amazing and is so lucky to have you guys as his parents!

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  9. this is exactly how i imagine motherhood! and some of these feelings i've for my babysitt kids, but i think i don't have any idea how motherhood feels like! just love this post!!!
    love hannah <3

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  10. Such a sweet post! He is beautiful and perfect. Thanks so much for sharing him with us! xx

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  11. What a beautiful boy! I'll be going through the same this summer {we're expecting a boy in July}, so I'm following your new-mom posts with great interest! So happy for your new family.

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  12. He is such a precious little babe. Enjoy every second of this, I've heard they grow much too fast. for any momma's liking.

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  13. Such a sweet post :)

    He is such a beautiful baby boy, and so lucky to have two incredible parents like you guys!

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  14. oh make my pregnany hormones explode already!! annnnnnnnnnd i'm crying :) how sweet is your little boy. i am so so happy for you and JB and i can only imagine what this journey of motherhood feels like. you wear it well sweet friend. so happy for you

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  15. so sweet! he is absolutely adorable!

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  16. Ahhhh I have been WAITING for a post like this! So happy you are experiencing the honeymoon of babyhood! :) albeit through sleep-drunk eyes lol.

    I have been following your blog for awhile and I just love your appreciation for beauty... I am so happy to hear a glimpse of your heart for the unbelievable beauty of mamahood!

    congratulations.

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  17. Goosebumps reading this, because these feelings are so familiar, I'm six months ahead of you!!
    Things will get easier! :)

    I love how you said 'I try to replace worry with my prayers for him', that is so powerful!

    Tucker is adorable!

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  18. oh sarah. he melts my heart. his eyes are just too much.

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  19. I knew the two of you would have a cute baby (obviously!!) but he is tooo darn cute in that hat oh deary!

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  20. So precious. I'm so happy for you!

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  21. chocking back tears... so sweet.
    he is so precious , every picture you post i just want to grab him through the screen and hold him!
    lots of love new momma!

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  22. such a sweet and surreal and overwhelming time! enjoy the flood of emotions and moments:-) xoxo

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  23. So incredibly sweet! I have no doubt you are experiencing every emotion in the book! So incredibly happy for you!

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  24. Such a sweet post. So happy for you, you will be one amazing mama. P.S. He's beautiful!

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  25. What a little sweetie pie you have!
    This is a very sweet post ;)

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  26. He is precious. Lovely words. Enjoy the little moments. :)

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  27. Congratulations!!!!
    (what a cutie)

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  28. Little Tuck is such a beautiful little boy. You write the sweetest words for him. It will be so lovely for him to look back on your letters when he grows up. He's certainly a lucky little guy to have you and JB for parents!

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  29. This brought tears to my eyes. What a lucky baby to have a momma like you! And where is that bunny from?

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  30. So happy for you and JB! And little Tuck is beyond cute!! Loving the shots!!
    Kristina x

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  31. He's the perfect little nugget and you're a beautiful mommy! I'm so ecited for you both! What a blessing :)
    xoxo

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  32. Well said Mama! ps. im going to bite his toes off :)

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  33. I've never read a more beautiful and honest post!
    Motherhood suits you precious mama x

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  34. So, so sweet!! He's one lucky little dude to have you as a momma!

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  35. He is so cute!!! Lovely pictures and awesome photography.

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  36. @mrs yellow ribbon ... it's Pierre from Bla Bla Dolls (: - from the every girls, danielle and alana

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  37. all i can say is i know exactly how you feel.

    i still look at ava and can't believe we made her--she is the perfect mix of the two of us.

    and the man you love with your baby--what could be any better?

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  38. Cuteness overload, what a JOY!!! :)

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  39. oh my gosh, he's a doll! that hat is too cute. isn't mamahood the best?! :) congrats to you and your growing family!

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  40. such a cutie. And to be honest, this makes me incredibly excited to be a mother one day

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  41. he is so beautiful! love this post!

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  42. Oh Sarah he is such a beautiful baby! You are so very lucky to have such a little stuf in your life...he's going to be a heartbreaker!
    xoxo

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  43. Such a sweet momma you are! What a blessing.. baby Tuck is just precious! So happy for you!

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  44. I love your sweet description of your new baby boy and being a new mom - makes me want to have a baby now! :) It is inspiring to see someone cherishing this time and blessing from above - just as God intends us to. God Bless you and your family, Sarah!

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  45. what a beautiful and inspirational post!! you're giving me the fever, sadie!! oh look what you've done :)

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  46. this is so sweet. motherhood really is the best. the best.

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  47. He just looks like the sweetest thing ever. You guys are/are going to be the best parents. How can you lose with that much love in your life?

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