Thursday, November 29, 2012

Birthday Wish List

Any december babies out there?  My birthday is around the corner ... December 17th to be exact!
JB and my family keep asking what I want... and I'm always kinda stumped. 
I say practical things  like new sneakers, eye glasses, and wallets. 
 But who says practical can't be pretty?  
And a few extra impractical treats to top it all off.   

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

palacio de las garzas

As promised, a further glimpse inside the Palace in Panama.  This place dripped in mother of pearl, chandeliers, and gold.  Which made me pleased as punch!  enjoy.

Monday, November 26, 2012

traveling whilst preggas + what i wore to the presidents home in panama

This babe has experienced a good bit of local US cuisine while in utero.  Beinning with Florida of course, Mississippi, Georgia, Alabama, Maryland, North Carolina, Virginia, Rhode Island, and Massachusetts.  Now his first foreign country, Panama.  Where he had lots of yummy coconut infused everything.  I had a virgin pina colada that pretty much ruined all future pina coladas for me. Traveling preggas hasn't been a whole lot different than before.  But I do get swollen vienna sausage toes now.  And in exchange, a bit of extra courtesy from fellow passengers.  

My travel uniform almost always consists of pixie pants, camilyn beth swagg, a comfy scarf,  leopard loafers, and I loved adding in my pretty new jewels from Lynzy and  my blush shop tote this time{to hold my kindle, iphone, pad of paper, antibacterial wet ones, and sunnies}.  Oh and that white rim just below my tummy is the cradle, which has surely helped my pregnancy induced sciatica.  Next time we travel (mexico in march, i know, crazy!) ... will be a totally different story.  During my flights I finished 4 hour work week and watched We Bought a Zoo.  Can't recommend either of them enough!  

 ... and a few outfit pictures of what I wore to the President of Panama's house // at 8 and a half months pregnant!  More photos to come in the next few days!  

Hope you all had a spectacular Thanksgiving!  My heart is overflowing this year in thanks.  

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Made By Girl

{Photography by Gem Photo}
Last year the adorable Michaela asked if she could turn a couple of my photos into canvases.  
Um, Of. course!
Now her lovely room is being featured on Made By Girl!

thoughts on marriage + babies

Raven and Jenni got me thinking this week when I read their posts on babies and marriage.

I don't think there's any magical number for a lot of things.  Including marriage, and maybe even babies.  Though I can only speak on behalf of marriage at this moment.  You know this guy for 6 months and you are getting married?   You've been dating for how many years and still haven't gotten married?  You had the statistically perfect amount of time before you decided to jump into marriage?  You got preggers on your honeymoon?  If you think any magical number in your head will surely keep your marriage (or marriage + babies) on the straight and narrow ... good luck.  Maybe it'll help to have stats on your side, but I'm not so sure.  I think it has a lot to do with who you were before you got together, who you are together, where you both prioritize what matters ... and the amount of honesty, trust, forgiveness and grace you are willing to extend to each other like rivers.  and you know the good stuff ...  like can't-keep-your-hands-off-each-other-ness.  I don't think you can hoard any one of those things without a bust.  babe or not. 

JB and I will have been married a few days shy of three years {if everything goes as planned. ha} when John Bullock IV comes into our lives.  We had a couple years of just us, and it was good.  I am not gonna joke, I was extraordinarily blessed in this department.  For the first couple years of our marriage, JB and I put "making out in as many countries possible" as our priority.  We got up to  25.  That's good.  But if I had to have cut it short because a babe was in my belle, that would have been good too. 

JB was the first guy in my life that made me feel comfy in my own skin, flaws and all ...  Mostly because he makes everyone feel like that.  You do crack?  // okay, well i don't.  but i'll be your friend.  ...  a most extreme case, but that would be an accurate response from the dude I married.  Basically, from the beginning of our friendship turned courtship turned marriage... I never felt like I had to have it all together to be worthy of his attention, affection, respect.  I still don't, and that's refreshing.  And I know after the bebe arrives, that kind grace is still gonna be available to me.  Everyday I am grateful to him for teaching me more about unconditional love.  And I plan on never taking that for granted and giving it right back.  

But having a baby will change a lot of things.  Nature reorganizes priorities.  And it's probably very polyanna of me to think it'll be for the better.  Harder inevitably, but richer in ways I don't think I'll grasp until he's here.  I've seen it go both ways.  What I've noticed about the people that it seems to go so right for is this:  they consistently choose what matters overall above what matters this second.  they are not caught up in an image.  they date their husband, they slow down with their children, and they don't forget who they are in the process either.  they know who they are serving, and it's not things that don't add up to a hill of beans in the end.

So having it all?  If you'd ask me to look at my life now 10 years ago and assess whether i have it all, I think I'd be on the side of no.  Because my life doesn't look perfect, and ten years ago I was after an image in my head of things that didn't add a whole lot of value to my life.  But this day, if you asked me do I have it all?  ...  in all the ways it really matters to me.  #polyannaforlife

Monday, November 19, 2012

SS Print Shop Holiday Giveaway

Today you can win one of Stephanie Sterjovski's pieces of gorgeousness from her printshop.
They are packaged SO cute too... perfect for gifts.
And some great ones for Christmas time too, 
I especially love "Sweet Baby Jesus" and "Let your heart by light"... oh and every single one.  !
Good Luck Friends and Happy Monday!

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Sunday, November 18, 2012

Sunday Quote

Photo from last summer in Dubrovnik, Croatia
words from Bob Goff's twitter feed. 

Thursday, November 15, 2012

If I had a waist this holiday season ...

 Yesterday I had to do a bit of shopping for my upcoming trip to Panama.
  and my back was so bad that I ... wait for it...
had to rent a motorized wheelchair.  cue another lesson in humility. 
Shopping also made me realize I'm excited about having a babe in my arms, and a waist back... eventually.  Instead of going home with something for the rehearsal dinner next week, I went home with what I'll now call  my fat pants.  man, are they comfy.  and comfort is king at the moment.
But if I had one this holiday season, you can bet I'd be wearing sky high clogs, pretty backless long dresses, princess tulle skirts, peplum, and a nice a-line skirt.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

this is the dream i am working on

dinner party via kinfolk // jackie o   /// home // via the glitter guide mom&son // johnny cash quote- unknock // couple in the rain // the neo southern belle

Inspired by the blog Ponderings of a Hopeful Romantic and her "this is the dream I'm working on", I created a little pinterest board.  It might be my favorite board yet.  
I had been making inspiration boards for each year I've been pinning.  ha 2 years and counting. 
It's fun to look back at 2011, now 2012, and look forward to 2013.
Each year has/ will be so different than the last.  But much has the same feel as the last.
But my this is the dream I'm working on board is my favorite.  I don't encourage living in the past or future.  that's no way to live.  but I love this board as a sort of checks and balance.  am I behaving / doing what I need to do to get to my five - ten year plan?  is my life heading in that direction?  
am I focusing on what matters this minute? 
At MTH last month we had to close our eyes and Lara gave us great visuals to walk us through what 5 to 10 years later could look like.  Then I physically spoke what that looked like for me. 
That beautiful dream is now forever engrained in my head. I think of it now like a prayer.
I encourage all of y'all to do the same.  Take the few minutes to walk yourself through it.
I won't get into the specifics of what my 10 year goal plan is ... but I will say it involves lots of love, soft light, some salt air, health, holding close, contentment, adventures, travel, and encouraging others to live intentionally.  and yours?  what do you see?

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Shop is Open

{header by paper please studio}

Had a few people asking, so I brought it back for the holidays.  
You can even take 15% off using code: fairytaleholiday

head here to welcome the shop back up.  

Godspeed Little Man // Letters to Tuck // Vol 11

Hi Tuck,
Last week I finally felt every kind of zen about being pregnant.  Oh sure the morning sickness has still been around, but I felt beautiful in this pregnant skin.  Then last Thursday I started having trouble walking.  Which is really humbling for your mom.  I don't mind having to waddle because I'm so big, but I don't love it because I'm having sciatica back problems.  Your mom likes things on her terms.  Likes to control what is beyond her.  Unfortunately.  And has a tough time being still. Allowing my body to heal, take it easy or ask for help.  or. or. or.  I could go on.  Still, it's been a good lesson to learn.  To count my blessings {like an easy time putting on pants, or walking up stairs ... these things I will not take for granted again!}. 

Suffering, even as something as minimal as this, has always given me clarity and compassion.  So I hope whenever you have to deal with things that are uncomfortable, embarrassing, or beyond your control that you look for new ways to count your blessings. 

and on the sunny side... 
today your dad's first words as we were snuggling with a hand on you (my belly) was
"i can't wait to meet him".
your dad is always going on and on about when you are going to arrive, because he can't wait to play.
i have no doubt you two will be the best of friends. ever.
melt my heart of stone whydontcha.

Love you, Momma

ps:  I promise not to sing to you too much (mama doesn't have a great voice) but I might just have to sing the above song, over and over. 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Friday, November 9, 2012

my greatest fear

 {an i-phone shot by jessica lorren - taken in last nights maternity session- wearing badgley mischka from rent the runway}

for all of you mamas out there, i seriously have no idea how you do it.  y'all are all my heroes.
i think i am busy now.

I instagrammed yesterday a text from my momma.  It simply said "hey honey!  how can I help u today?" ... It's partially the pregnancy hormone overload of 2012 but tears literally streamed down my face for at least a good five minutes.  My mother has one million other things to do.  Yet she makes serving others (specifically, me) a priority.  How do you live up to that kind of thing?  I hope I get it like she has always.  I hope I can be selfless, put what matters before all of the stuff that simply does not, and be present for my family.  That last line is literally my greatest fear.  The whole not being really there when I'm with bebe tuck and JB.  I don't want to miss anything, or any opportunity to show them they are it for me.  They're my top priority.  Yesterday at lunch I watched a mother with her two boys.  She was on her phone for the duration of the lunch.  The 4ish year old on an ipad, and the 2 year old just sat there.  bored stiff.  I get it, things like that happen.  I'm so not perfect in this arena.  but i hope it's not the norm for them, and i hope it doesn't become the norm for me.  Just pray I'm not too busy with the wrong things to not fully engage in life

and then work.  i think the two words "working mother" is totally redundant.  but as I figure out how my work will look for me once the baby arrives ... I get anxious.  Even though working from home is an incredible luxury.  A good problem for me to have.  but I wonder, how do you do it?  I'm trying to prioritize now, change my times around, and set boundaries for my work life .... which I've been doing since the beginning, but feel this added pressure to just get it right.  I'm extremely grateful for grandma's that will help me.  But how do you get over the guilt?  How do you tear yourself away?

Sorry for the total rambling that took place this morning.  but mama's out there, how do you do it?  teach me thy ways.  you all amaze me.  and how did you grow up? 

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Printcopia Canvas Print Giveaway

JB has been asking for a while now that I get this photo printed for him.  He loved this day spent in the swiss alps, and specifically Furkapass (where a james bond movie was filmed).  Yesterday I surprised him with some canvas prints for his office from Printcopia.  Which was incredibly easy to upload, edit, and ... voila.  Shipping was lightning fast too.  It completely made JB's night when I gave it to him.  His office is now even more like a shrine to our travels.  I'll have to share with y'all our wall there soon!
The next canvas print I'm going to get is a blow up of my peony print from Bern last year.  And if you wanted that too (or any of my travel photos) I'd gladly let you use it for this print giveaway!
so today is your lucky day!  
Win a free print canvas from Printcopia!

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Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Life Lately

Thankful list.  

Rose Champagne for Molly's Birthday... even if I don't get any.  It's pretty enough to make up for that fact.
The pretty birthday Girl and ole Lucille {Lola's idol/nemesis}
Fresh Seafood.
I've gone a little overboard lately // been completely spoiled.
In the past week I've had delicious gulf shrimp a few times, Maine lobster, stone crabs, and husband speared  triple tail and sheepshead.  I am one with the sea.  
LOVE this treat AV gave me.  And you Rhode Islander's know what's up.  That stuff is darn good.
Lola Hates the mint.  But I however, am incredibly thankful for that little hard working floor scrubber.  
This gorgeous venue.  Lucky to be able to do what I love and be surrounded by such a dreamy place.
time with my momma and sis.  at a bakery. YUM.
white almost deserted sandy beaches and mid day walks
boat rides with my Huz and Lola.  
and this gorgeous weather we've been having.
lots to be thankful for (:  

what are y'all thankful for?

Monday, November 5, 2012

Pregnant in Heels.

 Last friday my sweet Jeanne invited me to Wine Women and Shoes.  My bump had its very own white carpet moment donning Camilyn Beth's midnight shuffle dress.   Cami was one of the featured designer's at the event and I was so proud to wear one of two camilyn beth pieces that I own and cherish.  Back story here, in true Sarah fashion, I needed help getting ready.  It's not everyday I do my hair and make up.  Or squeeeeeze into a dress that was made just for me ... but 20+ pounds ago.  They all but needed a crowbar to get me in that dress.   Thanks to my mom and sister and a safety pin, I got it on miraculously.  
And somehow I didn't cut off baby tuck from oxygen.  
Hope you all had great weekends.  I'll share mine tomorrow!
Have the best monday!!  

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Sunday Quote // Reminder

just a sunday reminder.   you're beautiful, no hiding. 
being authentically you is worth it. even if you take a hit.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Letters to Tuck: Volume 10

pixie pants // i phone case // similar shirt

Hi Tuck,
Yesterday was Halloween and it made me SO over the moon excited for next year.
There was a little lion boy who twick or tweated us last night and my heart turned into a puddle on the floor.  Oh my laws, what you're gonna do to my heart. 
Your nina told us that one of the best things about having kids is how you relive your childhood, and see life through your little ones eyes who seem to be always looking at the world in amazement.   How you're suddenly made aware of the beauty and simplicity of ordinary objects and events so often  overlooked.  My head is sometimes so far up my iphone's or my mind in the past or future.  But not a kid! They live in the moment.  Your momma digresses, but I love you and I love what you've done to my heart. already.