Tuesday, January 24, 2012

the bravest most beautiful affair ...


when i first read this on on my style/make up/ lifestyle guru steph's blog I got chills, the head to toe variety.  I searched out to see if it was in a book... i found the full text on a blog.  it is Ann Voskamp's beautiful words.

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In his sleep, he finds my hand.
It’s the only one I’ve ever known.
Hand in mine, that wraps around a waist, draws in close, slumbering strength always holding on.
I don’t know how another man’s skin feels.
My grandmother lived that kind of courage. The kind that made a vow and had the bravery to let it age.
The wrinkled faithfulness of monogamy, it can look pedestrian, the kind that finishes well, parades up through the Arc de Triomphe, battle scarred, and the tourists just blithely shuffle by, pigeons taking to oblivious wing. She told me about this.
I remember it, nights like these.
How she said that the bravest love is wildly faithful and it falls hard again every morning. How it puts the toilet seat down and the cap on the toothpaste and winks for those already-won eyes. It knows what we seek may be found in what we already have.And there can always be this — the allure of the vows.
I feel his skin, his hand around me in sleep. We sleep like this this night after years of nights, light of the moon stretching long across our room, the pillows, us growing old in this romanced ordinary. It’s grace and fresh gratitude that can make us strong enough to marvel in the seeming monotony of anythingAnd the happily married have eyes that look long enough to make the familiar new. When he comes up behind me and hugs me at the stove, I still whisper it to him: “I still can’t really believe I get to be married to you.” Grandma washed Grandpa’s underwear for fifty six years, and she said it was always so good.
Warm it falls on the nape of my neck, his sleep breath, close. I press closer. There’s this beautiful drama’s in a long faithfulness and aged love might be heroic. God knows the passion of a covenant.
His stubble rubs my shoulder.
He makes me, shape and rib, and my head’s full of how we’ve known each other and how he still is mystery and how the want is still all his. We sleep in matrimony and it is holy.
... ann voskamp...
beautiful.

49 comments:

  1. There are some things so beautiful it almost hurts. This is one of them. Thanks for sharing! xo

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  2. it is nice to have a love like this :)

    so beautiful!

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  3. So beautiful!

    xoxo
    Petchie
    http://www.itsallofthelittlethings.blogspot.com/

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  4. Beautiful beyond words...thank you for sharing.
    Catherine
    xx

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  5. Beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing.

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  6. this are truly beautiful words. I know everyone often tailors words, quotes and stories to mold their life to give it extra meaning, but this feels so personal to me. this is exactly how i feel about my husband & exactly how i felt while he was away. i have told my husband almost everyday since we got married that i can't believe how lucky I am to be his wife. & i constantly repeat "i love my husband so much" in my head, not to remind myself but because it amazes me how much i love him. thank you for sharing this sarah!!

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  7. Thank you for sharing this :) I pray all ladies strive to wait for this sort of love and this sort of commitment. It truly rocks my world how gracious God has been to me with the one I get to spend my life with.

    Glad you see all the beauty in this :) It is truly captivating (she is a ridiculous writer, too).

    xoxo, Anna N

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  8. oh be still my heart. i love this so much.

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  9. Amazing! This makes me feel so blessed and happy. Thanks for sharing!

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  10. wow...thanks for that Sarah...that just made my morning.
    xoxo from Calgary

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  11. Wow--I am blown away--this is beautiful. Beautifully written and so so true.

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  12. this is amazing. i hope and pray that after 50 years this is my marriage still.

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  13. Ann Voskamp is my hero. What a beautiful prose. So glad I get to see my hubby tonight.

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  14. I am in love with this love that is being written about. I believe it Lord, oh how i believe it. thanks girl. Your such a joyful blogger! :)

    ♥CheChe

    http://savedthrulove.blogspot.com

    oh, btw, i cried... yeah. just had to share.

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  15. Oh wow, this is just SO beautiful! Thank you for sharing these goosebump-raising words!

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  16. after reading this, i looked at george while he was just working away and smiled :)

    i love this so much sarah! thank you for sharing! x

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  17. after reading this, i looked at george while he was just working away and smiled :)

    i love this so much sarah! thank you for sharing! x

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  18. i'm in love with this post. so happy you shared it with us!

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  19. so beautiful, can't believe i've never read this before!

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  20. This is beautiful. And while I'm not married yet- I've been with the same guy for 8 years and this is simply perfect.

    Thanks for sharing!

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  21. So tender and touching. I'm thankful everyday that I'm the one who gets to wash Husband's underwear, and I pray that in fifty-six years nothing will have changed!:) Thanks so much for sharing, Sarah!

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  22. Wow. I only hope, one day, I find someone who will make me feel this way

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  23. What a beautiful description of love. :) love your heart.

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  24. goosebumps. and tears in my eyes. I love falling asleep in those arms; his stubble on my shoulder and warm breath on the nape of my neck. :)

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  25. This is soo so beautiful! Thanks for sharing! If you don't mind, I am going to re-post this to share with my family and friends and link it to you!

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  26. Oh wow, I seriously got chills reading this... so beautifully written!

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  27. My heart skipped a beat when I read this. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. And inspiring. Thank you for sharing.

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  28. I just found your blog and this is a perfect first post to stumble on! I love it... so beautiful and inspiring :)

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  29. Oh, this is absolutely breathtaking. Thank you so much for sharing!

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  30. I love Voskamp - she has an amazing writing style.

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  31. I wish more people let it age. I love this. Thanks for sharing!!

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  32. Isn't Ann Voskamp amazing?! I'm on round three of reading her book 1000 gifts. She has this way of writing and inspiring people that I haven't come across before. Thanks for sharing :)

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  33. I love this! I believe in matrimony and think this is the most beautiful way to celebrate that.

    xo. Little Miss
    www.livelylittlemiss.blogspot.com

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  34. Beautiful. Brought tears to my eyes. <3 I love this so much...

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  35. Just catching up on my blogs now... I love this! It made me cry, and this post was from my anniversary. Double cry. :)

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