Saturday, April 18, 2015

Wesley's Layette and Bassinet

{our bed was via joss & main - not on there now but I do see it on there sometimes // halo bassinest // TBBC bunny // monogrammed jellycat bunny }}
{lamp // be still print from Jacin Fitzgerald // nipple cream via honest - this stuff is a lifesaver for that first week!  //  Savor // Tucks books // my new favorite, always with me water bottle c/o white elephant designs // our marble bedside tables are antiques} 
{changing table cover // honest baseball diapers // burts bees all purpose ointment  // honest soothing bottom wash // wipes warmer }
{pacifier and pacifier clip // extra baby hat}
Soo I have yet to finish Wesley's nursery.  The main thing I'm missing are blackout curtains.  If you have any you love - please let me know!  We also need to hang a few more pieces of art.  But I am in no rush since I'm sure Wesley will be sleeping in our room until at least 3 months ... but knowing me, likely a lot longer.  I also cleared the top of our dresser off to make room for a little changing station; so I'm not running back into his room in the middle of the night for a diaper change.  We keep the diaper dekor in the bathroom because even though it masks the smell, it isn't 100% stink-proof.  He's been sleeping in his Halo Bassinest since he came home last week.  I love that I can have it as almost part of our bed so he can be right next to me, but it'll swivel right off when I need to get up and that there's no worry I'll roll over on him.  It also has a few other things I love - a little vibration button, some music, a nursing timer, a light if I need one in the middle of the night, some music and pockets for wipes, pacis, hats, etc.  Tuck used the rock and play which was great but I did not love getting up every time he needed to be comforted.  With the bassinest the side will go down, and I don't have to get out of the bed.  So clearly we are fans!  I also have a basket with my favorite swaddles, gowns, and footed onesies; again, so I don't have to run into his room in the middle of the night!  I'll get to finishing the nursery soon - but for now I'm mostly just into snuggling my babies.  (:

ps:  i love our dresser and night stand but it's literally a hundred years old and the marble needs help!  is there any hope?  do you have any tips for making marble look like new?

Friday, April 17, 2015

Wesley Spam

Happy one week birthday!  
sleep sack c/o native wilds
adorable monogram bootie sleeper c/o bella bliss 
{Dress // shark tooth Necklace c/o Margaret Elizabeth // Bracelet c/o blingjewelry }

Wesley James you are thee most precious, sleepiest, content little lamb there ever was.
I don't even know we've even heard you belt one out.  You like everything - rocker, swing, boppy, but you are most content sleeping on my chest.  I'm most content like that too.  Your brother loves you dearly already.  When your grandparents were bringing Tuck home they asked him "want to go see mama and daddy?"  and he said " and baby too!".  He likes watching you, putting his head by your head, snuggling, touching your hand, giving you "high pives" ... we are all really excited you are ours.  You've had a ton of visitors and happily sit in each of their arms.  You are the sweetest.
It was my first day with just you and Tuck today and I'll admit I was a bit nervous.
But it's gone really well.  We've had fun outdoors, had a baby/mama play date, and  here I lay with both of you napping next to me.  
Wesley, you are the sum of so many prayers.  We love you, you little lamb.  
Happy first week!!  

Monday, April 13, 2015

Wesley James: a birth story

Water was broken, bags were packed, off to the hospital!

Wesley was due on April 9th.  That day we had spent the morning with my mom, and then I headed to my doctors appointment while she watched Tuck.  I picked up my number one pregnancy craving  (a blueberry kale salad) on the way to the doctor's at my favorite bistro for an after lunch treat.  At my OB's they checked me, and I was a bit more dilated and more effaced, but I told him I'll ride it out until 41 weeks and he was fine with that.  I really wanted to go into labor naturally, I wasn't feeling super uncomfortable yet, so I was in no hurry.  I picked up Tuck so he could nap at home.  Tuck is doing ISR - which is an intense swimming class.  JB takes him every night at 6 - so he had come home early like usual.  Tuck was laying next to me asleep in bed when all of a sudden at 5:30 my water broke!  I hollered at JB to get off the phone from the other room and to come here!  I told him my water broke, I started to cry, which woke tuck up, JB started to dance around singing "we gonna have a baby", and he called his parents.  His parents live about ten minutes away thankfully and scooped up Tuck.  He still made it to swim class!  I started to pack a few last minute items and off we went!  The hospital is ten minutes from our house and I had no steady contractions yet so the ride over was easy.  JB dropped me off at the front and went to park the car.  There was a volunteer at the front directing everyone and I let her know my water had broken and I needed to go to labor and delivery.  She got real wide eyed and told me to sit down in the wheel chair!  She called labor and delivery and told them it was a code violet.  Which apparently means I'm having the baby right there in the lobby.  I had no idea what was going on and was just smiling, talking to her about her births in a blizzard in detroit, when about 10 nurses, one of which had a stretcher, from labor and delivery start running in my direction.  When they saw me obviously in no distress and no baby coming out immediately they were all confused.  The volunteer meant well!  We all had a good laugh.  A sweet girl I grew up with checked us in and as her shift was ending, she got to pick out who would be our nurse.  Our nurse was amazing!  Truly an angel.  I discovered that my doctor I had been praying I would get was the one on call.  It all felt surreal!  My mama arrived around 7:30, we breathed through contractions together until 10 when I got the epidural.  The man gave me an amazing epidural.  I could feel pressure from contractions and move my legs but I couldn't feel pain.  Total opposite of last time!  I told my nurse I wanted to labor down for as long as I could.  Around 1am she checked me and Wesley's head was right there!  My doctor came in and it was time to push. Within 5 pushes and fifteen minutes my precious Wesley came screaming into this world and was placed directly in my arms.  at 1:10am our Wesley was born!  Just an hour after his due date - what a punctual guy!  I looked over and there was JB with a couple big crococodile tear rolling down his cheeks.  JB, our nurse, the doctor, my mama - everyone was such an encouragement to me as well.  I did not stop crying at how beautiful it was.  What a miracle it all is.
After they cleaned him up and weighed him, they placed him back in my arms to start nursing.  He went right to nurse and pretty much hasn't parted since.
JB went to grab me some dinner since I hadn't eaten.  I was able to walk fine after 30 minutes.  Time just flew.  I could not sleep to save my life!  I could have put him in his bassinet, actually gotten some sleep and he would have been fine, likely not made a peep.  But I could not stop obsessing over him.  My doctor that delivered him stopped by before his morning C-sections and said "I'm so proud of you!  you did it".. he is so precious.
Before I knew it, it was 7 am and time to move us to the a different maternal ward.  My nurse put me in a wheel chair to move us and had us out by the nurses desk for a bit.  I was sobbing.  I just kept saying "I'm so happy!  I'm not sad, don't worry about me! I'm just so happy!!" All of the nurses were laughing at me at this point.  My pediatrician, who is tucks too, was there and he was giggling at me as well.  I bided my time staring and nursing until Tuck was to meet Wesley around 11.
JB went to get us some good coffee.  Wes and I facetimed Heather on her way to work and we both just boo-hoo'd over every inch of him.  Then my sister came up, my dad, shannie, stefanie, my in laws around this time too.  I just sat from 7-11 staring at Wesley and crying.  When you become a mom, you become the worlds biggest creep (:  and it's acceptable! Holy hormones!  But even now, the hormones are maybe a little less raging, I can still cry on a dime thinking about it all.  It is just such a miracle.  How many times am I gonna say that?  seriously it could get out of hand.  but it just is!
And then Tuck met Wesley and it was a whole other sobfest in the best way imaginable.  I can't believe I'll get to watch and guide these two boys with JB into adulthood.  It is way too much! I feel an enormous amount of gratitude that I get to be their mama, that I get to raise them with the best person I know, their father.  The rest of Wesley's birthday was spent with more visitors and JB and I just beamed the whole darn day.  It was honestly the best day of my life!  We got to take him home around noon the next day.
My in laws took Tuck to Busch Garden's on Saturday - rough life that kid has!  They dropped him off after and we popped a bottle of champagne with my in-law's to toast Wes.  {and to celebrate that I actually get to toast!} That night my parents brought us dinner and we all ate while my dad held Wesley, and made up a fib that he had already had dinner.  He hadn't, but just wanted to hold Wesley I found out later.  We are loving being a family of four (errr five, sorry lola!).  JB took off this whole week and I just couldn't be happier to get a whole week with all three of these guys!     

Saturday, April 11, 2015

When Tuck Met Wesley

{my pjs // tucks big brother scrubs monogrammed by tinebowtique

Yesterday was truly the best day of mine and JB's life.  Wesley was born at 1:10am on April 10th - a birth story I can't wait to write about.  I never thought I'd be one of those people who really loved birth (always thought of it as a means to a very happy end) but yesterday changed that for me.  It was so special to both JB and I.  After he was born I was soooo excited I could not sleep.  I did not stop with the chesire cat type of smile or crying the happiest tears. All of my nurses thought maybe I was in pain but I was just so happy.  Tuck came to visit around noon and met his baby brother.  I completely lost it, of course.  One of the best experiences of my life.  For their first meeting - my sister held Tuck and I held Wesley and we were both just so emotional over it all.  Tuck was so incredibly sweet with his "baybay".  I'm sure it'll be crazy for the next - oh ever, but I feel so honored I'll get to watch these two and witness their bond.  I could not be more thankful for these pictures that Shannon captured and that we will all treasure forever.  
Siblings are such a gift!  
ps:  will be back soon with wesley's birth story!

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Waiting on Wesley ... + links

Happy due date Wesley James!  You can take your time ... though just know there are many that can't wait to meet you, and your daddy, your big brother, and I are at the top of that list.  sooooo maybe don't take too long (;  I am already dilated and effaced - but really don't want to use pitocin, so (hopefully) letting him take his sweet time.

What Would My Mom Do? is a great article for mamas.

I have been living in these maternity yoga pants - that also work after the bump!  They are incredibly soft and comfortable.  All I care about lately usually.

I think Liz Bachman has the best style and eye.  Love seeing her as a mama and loved her first month list.

Everyone asks if Tuck understands what's going on and I think he's really starting to.  The other morning he said - "mama!  baby! {gave my stomach a kiss} when baby gonna come?".  I also ask him if he's excited to have a little brother and he always says "mmmmmhmmmm!".  Seeing my friends twins on Sunday he kept telling everyone around him to "shhhhhh!" for the babies, and gently petting their hands.  So I have quite a bit of hope this will go well, though I'm sure we will have plenty of trying moments as we become a fam of four.

With all of the promoted pins on pinterest these days I get a little lost.  So I generally just cheat and go to my favorite's pinterest pages and go from there.    Caroline's // Lindsay's // Emily's  - do you have any go to pin pages?

I'm not sure where I'd wear this buttttt.  i need to come up with something.  post baby of course.  Maybe it'd be great for a night time summer wedding?!  With these earrings.  yes, please.

Moms, get in the pictures of your life.  A good reminder!  How much do you love the pictures of your mama when you were growing up?!  I don't want to get to the end of this thing and not have pics with my children.  Even if my hair is never done.

Books I really want to read:  Scary Close, Overwhelmed, This is the Story of a Happy Marriage, and The Life Changing Magic of Tidying up and The Best Yes.

Books I'm actually reading:
I Love You Because You're YouReally Wooly Bedtime PrayersChugga Chugga Choo ChooWhere do diggers sleep at night?Bear Snores On and The Golden Egg Book (he brings it to me at least three times a day)

Maybe next time I update I will be posting Wesley's sweet face up here!  Shannon is coming to the hospital when Tuck comes to meet his Wesley for the first time.  I can't wait (:

also, if you are the praying type - please keep me us in yours.  xxS